Till today, I still dunno is it still worth to keep this relationship exist anot...?
Tired and alone, although I keep go hang out wit other and gaming to force myself to forget it....
Well I think I am just keep cheating myself that to forgot it....
I jz keep cheating myself that face is doesent matter, boyish is doesnt matter......
But I think I was TOTALLY wrong and so wrong.....
Nothing can compare to ur selfishness and ignoring on me.....
Should I blame you or myself?
Blame myself not pretty enough?
Blame myself not girlish enough?
Blame myself not slut enough?
All the way come, I dun hv the right to care bout you......
But u hv the right to choose not to believe me.....
U hv the right choose to see all wat im doing is wrong witout any reason...
Choose to BETRAY ALL wat u said to me.....
Wat to do?
U can choose to no need me, But I need you,so I dun hv the right of choosing.....
Several time of nightmare telling me that if I keep avoiding like this just make myself getting crazy.....
Everytime I wake up frm the nightmare there is just only tears belong with me...
But your stubborn jz make me dunno how to face you.....And you are changed,getting to worst....
What should I do?
Can you teach me how to do to not lose you like past?Witout any argue and the cold feeling?
I tot you were not him, but u still do the same thing like he did......Why not?
There is no different now jz I was once again fooled and hurted......
You nvr give any explaination, your act are telling me like this....
I dunno, what should I do, I dunno your mind, or mayb say you r so strange to me in this moment.....
