Beginning of My Rotten Life

Is so tired and headache since these days rushing for all my assignment done for final week, same as others.....
But still my work not the good one in the class......haiz....
My creative was getting lower and lower nowadays.....
I wish to get rid of it but....It still exist and make me feel like so useless and depressing......WTF.....

Finally get sick in the end......
and was flunking mah 2d animation.......owh sorry Mr Ken~T^T
i think i really gonna touch it up before assesment,it was in 11st and 12th of May...
But now still bit not feeling well lolz.......

Summore is the day when I go to find bi tot wanna have a talk.....
It was been around 3 week at least since last time hang out wit him.........
BUT I WAS SOARTHROAT HOW TO TALK????WTF~?~?~T^T~

End up with looking at him playing Fatal Frame 4 on wii until the end.....
Enjoying the lame of laughing at different kind of ghost in the story, and lame-ness of Raymand playing game......
They really make a NICE PARTNER ROFL~

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Okay..............
This was make me feel so wanted to bang the wall........
When I heard that someone wanna ban me off frm sumwhere,I was like>>>>>O_O
HELO FARKER?
DID I KILL UR WHOLE FAMILY OR RAPE UR BF/GF????
ALARH~It make me so depresss.................Grrrr........

I really cant take off the confusing of my brain tat time...........
Not really coz i think too much i think........
It din exist in my life since I found out tat I wun be care of anything like the past........

It jz..........
Who is the one talking the truth?
Who is the one who cheating me exactly...??
Did they really consider me as friend?
Or just a toy........?

Finally end up talk wit Arden and thanks to her....
She clear up my mind.......
She told me tat I shud hv faith on it........
I just think tat......
So alone........
When u were found out tat u hv been abandoned or betrayed....
Or nobody care of u in true,just a act to the public.......
And when u feeling was ignored......
Even u tell the truth.....

So what shud i trust for?
Another hurt on my heart?
Another scar make me once again wanna end up of my life??
Or make me flunking off my life again for a year?3 year?Or how many years?

I dont know.........